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2011-12-09T16:00:00.001+08:00

Project Wanderlust 2012 : SEOUL / End-Winter;Spring / USA / End-Spring;Summer /

post in a long time

2011-10-18T11:04:00.003+08:00

His calling for me is certain. But I don't know exactly where it will be.

God has been calling me close to Him recently, I feel lost when I dont think of him consciously

in every moment of my life. Because He encompasses every part of it. The Holy Spirit dwells within me, I cannot deny Him. I thank God for such assurance. He gave it to me with His liberty not because I earned it or seeked Him, I have done nothing worthy of that or anything people say

Christians should do to be near Him, He drew Himself to me, in my heart through personal convictions and through the stories of others' lives; their testimony and lives attest to Jesus being truly their real and living Saviour changing their lives bit by bit as they allow Him to wholly giving up all their selfish desires for His perfect will.

It's pass the point I say even if feel like im not living and in an eternal sleep a lucid dream, I will still love God and believe in Him, even if i'm going insane I will still believe in God who never changes, who cares about my ever changing and faliable mind and body, His Spirit never changes, and i holdfast to that He will hold unto me for eternity. I never felt so joyful to look forward to the day i finally see Him face to face, but I'll admit I have much to be ashamed about in my life so far.

I guess this calls for a life change, i mean slowly so that they will become habits and stick. not one off actions I feel motivated to do at that moment, but changing my character; to be more like Christ. Thinking of others, being sacrificial to our belongings and letting go of things when the time calls for giving. I thank God for working in me. I feel that without Jesus Christ, I am lost and nothing, but in Him I am powerful and a child of God. :) PRAISE GOD! ;D

Cheepistle - Now that you've become a Christian, continued...‏

2011-09-15T16:25:00.002+08:00

In my last cheepistle, I noted that there are no short cuts or easy steps towards growing as a Christian. It is a journey.

But we can be helped along by signposts to guide us on the way. This is the purpose for the ensuing series of cheepistles, where I will be discussing six key elements of the Christian life. You may notice that these elements correspond to the six statements that define the vision for our youth ministry.

The first element is that the Christian life is about enjoying a personal vibrant relationship with God.

This is not the key to spiritual growth or spiritual life. This IS spiritual growth and this IS spiritual life (John 17:3).

The Christian faith may not be reduced to a religion. It is a relationship. We are called not to cling to a set of doctrinal propositions, but a person. To be sure, religious practices (such as sacraments, membership with a community, conformity to an ethical code, even evangelism and church building!) and doctrine (i.e. a well-conceived and comprehensive biblical theology) are very important, but if we kept ourselves to just those, we would have sorely missed the central purpose of the Christian life. We would have been like a professor of philosophy and human relationships who had spent years researching and teaching about love, but who’s never been married and had never properly loved a person in his life! Devotion and doctrine must go together.

We must be careful not to major on the minors, even when the minors can seem very important. Remember what Jesus said to the Ephesian church (Revelation 2) – they had a reputation for accomplishing many good works and for standing up for sound doctrine – but they had lost their first love! And for that, they were in serious danger of losing their place as a church. Their rebuke came from no one else but Jesus their Lord.

See also Mark 3:14, where the evangelist tells us the key reasons why Jesus called His disciples – FIRST, that they might be with Him [Fellowship]; then second, that He might send them out [Mission].

God desires a personal relationship with each of us.

This means that your relationship with God is ultimately not meant to be mediated by anyone else (other than Jesus Himself). Someone may have led you to Christ (or more precisely, been led by the Spirit to facilitate your coming to Christ). Someone may have taught you and raised you up in the teachings of Christ. Others may have preached to you when you had backslidden, or had inspired you by their personal example of walking closely with God.

But at the end of the day, God calls you to a personal walk with Him. He knows you by name, He calls you by name. He wants you to know Him on a personal, intimate level. No child of God is ever called to stand and admire God from a distance [If that was the best that the Israelites at Sinai could do, it certainly is not what’s offered to us!].

I want to tell you that that is the greatest blessing and joy that anyone can ever have – God offers Himself to us. But the choice is yours whether you want to leave Him standing at the door, or supping with you at the table (incidentally, Revelation 3:21 concludes this metaphor with Jesus granting the church the possibility of sitting with Him on His throne!).

God doesn’t just want a personal relationship with you. He desires a vibrant relationship with you. It should be marked by the fullness of God’s life in us. With God, life cannot be permitted to be viewed with dreariness and boredom anymore. Everything can be tinged with meaning and purpose, and enjoyed to its fullest. Why do so many people nowadays find their jobs drab, and their studies pointless? How did we end up stuck in a rut, and shooting aimlessly, whiling away our hours and days? It boils down to a lack of purpose, a confused identity, and the conundrum of unresolved sin resulting in brokenness. God has purposed to take all these away. When you go deep in your relationship with Him, you will discover that He has made you for a purpose, that you have a unique and colorful identity (in Him), and you have the hope of forgiveness and freedom from sin. Most of all, you will find a God who loves you with an everlasting love, and who delights over His children. Anyone who says that his life became boring ever since he became a Christian has simply not yet experienced the fullness of life in Christ. Would that that is not the case for every believer!

At the same time, I cannot leave you thinking that cultivating a personal vibrant relationship with God will be nice and thrilling all the time. It may even be hardly so most of the time. I say this not because life is hard. But when one desires to draw near to God, he will find himself walking down the challenging road of stepping into the light of self-judgment. God will not suffer you to draw near to Him while choosing to remain in sin and darkness – these are totally at odds for holiness and un-holiness cannot abide together.

It is like courtship. We usually begin thinking that we are out in search of “the one”. We think that once we have found the person who fulfills our essential criteria of a good match, the relationship will be well. Then we discover that once you get into the relationship, the burden is on you to be “the one” for that other person as well! This is because the chief criterion is not something that you possess once for all time, it is dynamic and it requires a daily commitment for fulfillment. That criterion is love.

When you approach God, you will quickly feel the utter inadequacy of your love and the grossness of your own sin. And yet freedom from these requires you to face up to that fact.

Can you be courageous enough to be honest about that?

But wait. There is more.

Pursuing God may involve seasons when God seems absent. Even the most ardent believers have had periods of wrestling with doubt and wallowing in sorrow. Life is hard. Yet, it is precisely during these moments when we come to grips with what is really in our heart: Have I been desiring the gifts and blessings, or God Himself? Even when there are dark clouds, will I still seek God? Will I cling to Him? He has promised never to leave you nor forsake you. He has promised Himself.

Oh dear friend – put your faith in God. Seek His face ever more!

ZW's Article

2011-09-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

NOW THAT YOU'VE BECOME A CHRISTIAN

First, let me give you a big hug and say "Congratulations!!!!" It is a great day for rejoicing, and I am so HAPPY for you. There's even greater rejoicing in heaven by none other than God Himself, in the presence of all His angels (I really wonder how they would react to see God like that!).

The day you became a Christian may seem like a small matter to you, but it is no small matter in the eyes of God, who has recovered a child who once was lost but now is found. It is no small matter to everyone who has prayed for you, even without your knowing. It is no small matter to everyone else who played a part in pointing you to Christ. And it is no small matter to every fellow believer who has walked that same road, made that same decision, and knows what it meant for themselves.

What lies ahead for you now?

I want to share with you a few things, as a fellow traveller (mind you, no tourists here! Only pilgrims).

Yes, you've begun on a journey that is wrapped up in God's amazing story of working in this world. He had made everything good from the beginning. But our first parents sinned, and we all participated in the self-destructing habit of saying "yes" to sin and "no" to God. Then came Jesus, who showed us that God loves us still, and offers us reconciliation and redemption. In the larger story, God is working to restore all of creation in His Son, and He will accomplish that completely one day when He returns - and set things right.

You are a part of that story now. And there is a Day when you will meet your God and your Saviour face to face. For the rest of your life, know that you are part of that story and that there is this Day to look forward to. How will you live in the light of that hope?

Do you remember what it was like when you had made that decision to trust in Jesus? Did you find yourself drenched with joy as you finally faced up to the horror of your own sin and rejection of God, and realised that He loves you still in His Son?
That is only a taste of all that God has in store for you. For the rest of your life, you may reflect and wonder at the glorious love and majesty of our God, and all that He has done for you. It is as if you had been courted by God. He wasn't just looking for a date. He was looking to enter into a relationship for life. Don't you know that you are now engaged to Him? That final Day is really the day of your Marriage.

You may, and it greatly blesses you, to begin right now the journey of getting to know the One you'll get to spend the rest of eternity with. Don't be afraid by that prospect, or think that that would be a dreariness. Your feelings are merely the feelings of one who had been used to thinking like the world, and as a someone held in sin's bondage. But Jesus came to set you free. As you get to know Him better, I assure you that He will turn out to be far better, far more just, and far more loving than you had imagined. A theologian once uttered these simply profound words, "God is beautiful." Oh yes! He really is.... and my heart's desire is that you will come to know Him more and more.

Towards that end, there are some things that you can do.

First, you must resolve day after day to say NO to sin. Sin is simply saying "no" to God, and it marrs your vision of Him, and your feelings towards Him. You must remember that sin once held you in bondage. Now that you had escaped its grasp, it will try again and again to hold you as much as it can in bondage. If it can't snatch you out of Christs' hand, it will try to put a basket over you so that no one can tell that you are Christs'. And it will endeavor by all means to kill your affection for God.
Remember that sin, its essence, is not behaviour. It's about your posture towards God. In the presence of God, the only proper response is to bow in reverence and in obedience. Think not that that is undignified. Real dignity comes from God saying to you, "Well done! Good and faithful servant."
Remember Whose you are.

Second, it is time to grow spiritually. People wished they could re-live their childhood. Spiritually - that is possible! You are born again. Spiritual truths and spiritual experiences will be fresh... as you would have never had them before (even if you'd been attending church for years; when Christ comes into your life, New Creation!). You may have the same thrill of discovery as a child who handles a new toy or plays with a dog for the first time.
But remember that you start off only as a child... there's much growing to do, and you should eventually get weaned off milk to eat solid food. Dig into God's word - it is laden with treasure. It is a love letter written to you by God. Soak in the words, let your mind feast on them day after day, allowing them to point you not to some abstract deeper truth, but to a greater knowledge of Him. Let God's word purge your mind and heart of the corruption that sin had caused, so that you may behold Him more fully and more clearly.

There are no short-cuts for spiritual growth; No five easy steps or seven simple strategies.
When you were saved, God delivered you from the penalty (or the effects) of sin. But now that you are saved, you are set on a journey of being delivered from the power of sin. God's agenda for your life did not stop at you believing in Jesus' name and getting a "ticket to heaven". If you will let Him, He wants to deal with every lingering aspect of sin and its history of abusing your life. It will be hard and it will be painful - you may even find yourself grasping to remnants of your old ways, however foolish that may seem now - but know that God means for nothing but your good, and you will be changed from glory to glory. God has already given us a glimpse of how the story will end, and it will end well for all who are His. Take comfort in that.

I said earlier that there are no short-cuts for spiritual growth. However, there are resources available for you. You are responsible for your own spiritual growth, but you are never called to walk the journey alone. Don't let the sin of pride tell you that you need nobody.
I urge you to get yourself into good company.
Choose godly friends, and talk with them about spiritual matters - sin entices us to write such things off as being "holy and showy", but be humble and yet determined to bring spirituality, a God-centered spirituality, into every aspect of your life. Those who engage well in such activity know that it is a matter of life.
Pray and be on the look out for people spiritually more mature than yourself, who are willing to teach you. Be willing to learn.
Get plugged into a community of fellow believers. God has designed His church to be diverse, so that everyone may help everyone else in unique ways to grow spiritually. Embrace this truth, and be patient with all, knowing that God wants to deal with everyone's sin as much as He wants to deal with yours. Be part of a three-fold cord that will not be easily broken.

Finally, the greatest resource that God provides is Himself. He has committed Himself to you. He has promised that He will never leave you nor forsake you; and His Spirit that dwells in you is that same Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead. He has dynamic power to work in your life!

Once again, congratulations! Since biblical times, the often-used compliment is "Blessed are you!" Indeed, you are so blessed to belong to Jesus.
And I am so blessed to have you as a fellow traveller.

Until that Day! Even so, come Lord Jesus!

the candle who had no faith.

2011-09-02T16:47:00.004+08:00

illustrations by me. copyrights
basically, im just being uttertly afraid to shine.

i like my comfortable space under the bed. i mean,
why would i wanna risk getting blown out?
i don't want that to happen again, oh no, that'll be beyond unimaginably hard.

so i'll just stay here until i melt in my own safe puddle of laziness and apprehension.

Skies :)

2011-08-22T14:03:00.002+08:00

Thank God for the beautiful skies to remind me to think of heaven's higher joys instead of earth's deep sorrows.

taken His mercies forgrantted.

2011-08-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

its so encouraging to see fellow christians, beloved brothers and sisters in Christ posting lovely things on the facebook and flooding my feed with encouraging, thoughtful and righteousness.

From God's word and verses to edifying christian articles. A glimpse of what is possible if we make the effort to make everything of our lives for God. Im guilty of so much this week, Its already thursday and i did not do anything really that i needed to finish. my project lift hanging and such procrastination to what i can sufficiently finish ages ago.
Do i get enough motivation for the next day? I should.
Lam 3:23-24 says that the love of the Lord is renewed daily! Great is His faithfulness to provide all that i need for the next day, not to worry about how tomorrow will turn out. I must take every effort and stand on the promise that He will be with me every step of today's troubles and work.
That i can do my best with His strength to glorify Him in every aspect. thought and deed.

Lord, may i not live like how Youve forbidden to take mercy forgrantted to do as i like. to sin cause i know for you sure Youll forgive. what a bad habit. Ill do it tomorrow i say, but why waste God's mercy He has planned and given especially for me for today's toiling?
I have much to accomplish in His name.

How i drift daily.

2011-08-11T22:02:00.001+08:00

Do Not Be Anxious

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

We should be slow to treat Jesus as if he doesn’t know what he is doing. He is not naïve in the way he deals with our anxiety. In Matthew 6:25-34 he tells us three times not to be anxious (vv. 25, 31, 34) and gives us eight reasons not to be anxious.

Evidently he thinks this will help. So don’t call it simplistic. Call it grace. Believe him. Take every reason and preach it to your soul as true. Say,

Soul, this is true. Jesus Christ says so. Trust him. He died for you. He loves you. He created you. He knows you. No one — no counselor, no pastor, no friend — knows as much about you as he does. Listen to him. Let these reasons sink in. Bank on them. Now, let’s get up and do what we need to do. Be gone anxiety.

Here’s a summary of what he said:

Life is more than food and the body more than clothing (Matthew 6:25).
God feeds the birds and you are more valuable than they are (Matthew 6:26).
It's pointless. It adds not one hour to your life (Matthew 6:27).
If God clothes ephemeral grass, he will clothe eternal you (Matthew 6:28-30).
Unbelievers are anxious about stuff. And you are not an unbeliever (Matthew 6:32a).
Your father (!) knows that you need all these things you're anxious about (Matthew 6:32b).
When you seek first God's kingdom and righteousness, what you need is added to you.
Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Tomorrow's trouble stays there (Matthew 6:34).

taken from DesiringGod

2011-08-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

heart of worship : our hearts beating in worship.

the way your music feels

2011-08-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

just the after rain melodies.
sipping a cup of pensive tea.

As He Pleases

2011-08-03T23:26:00.003+08:00

So I have learnt not to ask, not to let him know that I miss him,
‘Cause I am so terrified to cool the fire in case I lose him,
And I know he doesn’t know just what he’s doing,
And he has no idea how far I’m falling.

gay marriages legalised and norway massacre

2011-08-01T14:28:00.002+08:00

Just had many thoughts on the recent news on the New York gay marriages legalisation and the Norway massacre that killed 93 and left many injured in all aspects.

Every time i read the news I'm always reminded strongly on the severity of evil in the world and that my life has been indeed a safe and blessed one. But there is so much going on in the rest of the world that frightens me in this safe bedroom of mine.

How much people warped from their sin, have normalised evil. The mass murderer said his deed was evil but necessary. I mean 'what is going on in his mind?' we all question. This is not normal at all, people say he is mentally insane. But really, in about 20 years time with this same steady disintegration of righteousness in people, this might just be a standard of 'sanity' that we find in the world.

I feel that it is very sad how many people twist God's word to rationalize their sin as acceptable; ignoring God's blatant statements of hatred for those sins. I so afraid that i am guilty of it too..I dont want God's word to be read and interpreted to fulfil my own lust as many do and have covered the truth with sin; for self justification. Like gay marriages, I mean it is stated clearly!

just read Romans 1:18-32. And they say it is just cultural? The ideal marriage workframe ( it was very good!) in Adam and Eve and between all those men and women are only applicable to their times? and they argue how times are different now, like how polygamy is frowned upon and we no longer need to fulfil family lineage by marrying our dead husband's relatives. Polygamy had always ended up with jealous wives, cursed offsprings, it was frowned upon even at those times. And even then, it was between female and male.

I'm just scared that i myself may take God's word, say it was cultural and doesnt apply to modern times and say no to many of God's commands for the people of Israel at that time.

Im not an israelite i can argue, times have changed. But no. Yesterday, Today, Forever, God is the same. Jesus Christ has been things different for us now, indeed. We are to repent. You dont see God coming down and speaking to us through a burning bush or angels, that doesnt mean God has changed or that he doesnt like angels to do so, that times have changed, that God has changed his standards? No! He doesnt everything according to the times in his method but He is still the same God we ought to honor.

I dont know about how i would end this, i dont think i have properly sorted out my thoughts or done enough study in His word but when i do i will update this post :)

2011-07-24T00:15:00.001+08:00

I <3 organizer. I have to get my life back on track. I now see how important my organizer is in my Life now. Mental preparations!

2011-07-23T22:52:00.001+08:00

A celibacy mindset may be just what we all need. Christ is all we need. Others are secondary. :) and God-willed.

riff

2011-07-13T22:30:00.001+08:00

these familiar riffs replaying on my player

just like these memories replaying in my mind

for the first time

2011-07-13T21:20:00.003+08:00

his riff, your heart, my muse

2011-07-11T19:00:00.002+08:00

When your outlook is blurred by problems, focus on Christ.

in Your time

2011-07-11T17:50:00.003+08:00

this beautiful song has been in my life since i was in primary school.

but never did it relate to me so much but recently.

it is a simple but truthful and encourage song...

indeed it's a simple concept we oft forget or neglect.

Psalm 56:9 When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me.

psalm 18:6 In my distress I called upon the LORD, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.

In His Time

In His time, in his time
He Makes all things beautiful
In His time
Lord, Please show me every day
As You're teaching me Your way
That You do just what you say
In Your time.

In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful
In Your time
Lord, My life to you I bring
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing
In Your time

Lord, please show me every day
As You're teaching me Your way
That You do just what you say
In Your time.
In Your time.
In Your time.

Romans 8

Life in the Spirit

¹There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.^[a] ²For the law of the Spirit of life has set you^[b] free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. ³For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin,^[c] he condemned sin in the flesh, ⁴in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. ⁵For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. ⁶For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. ⁷For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law; indeed, it cannot. ⁸Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.

⁹You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. ¹⁰But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. ¹¹If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.

Heirs with Christ

¹²So then, brothers,^[d] we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. ¹³For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. ¹⁴For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons^[e] of God. ¹⁵For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry,"Abba! Father!" ¹⁶ The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, ¹⁷and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.

Future Glory

¹⁸For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. ¹⁹For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God.²⁰For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope²¹that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. ²²For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. ²³And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. ²⁴Forin this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees?²⁵But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.

²⁶Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, butthe Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. ²⁷And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because^[f] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. ²⁸And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,^[g] for those who are called according to his purpose. ²⁹For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.³⁰And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

Never the same

2011-07-08T02:15:00.001+08:00

You can never have two people who love each other the same. Somehow one 'loves more' most of the time. It's just so difficult to go back in time to when we drifted from being best of friends. I never cherished my friendships that much then. I had many friends, none of which i can call as best friends. I guess I was afraid since I was a kid in primary school, of the responsibility that followed after that inseparable state in a relationship we would share.
No matter how much you mean to me, I know certain other people mean more to you than I do, but it's alright, I'm content to know I'm still in your life, that God still retain my place in your life as a friend who will be there for you; God using me as a means to call you back to Him. I love you very much, I mean it, I don't say things like this. But you won't be reading this anyway, it's just my way to express my feelings, if somehow, someday you read this. I hope you understand me.
:) <3

Two of my long time wishes

2011-07-08T02:06:00.002+08:00

Whine into Wine

2011-07-05T12:03:00.001+08:00

"the Joy of the Lord is your strength " neh 8:10

The burdens that God places on us squeezes the grapes in our lives and produces wine.
If my life is producing only a whine, instead of the wine, then ruthlessly kick it out. It is definitely a crime for a Christian to be weak in God's strength!
Instead of whining to God how big my troubles are,
tell my troubles how big my God is! :)

Diligence

2011-07-05T12:02:00.001+08:00

really taking my art seriously from now on. i hope you can see and support me in this endeavour.

2011-06-21T12:51:00.001+08:00

CASTING CROWNS

"East To West"

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness (?)
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other

Making Godly decisions, good questions to ask yourself.

2011-05-18T14:07:00.002+08:00

taken from http://www.victorious.org/choices.htm

How to Make Godly Decisions

By Dr. Dale A. Robbins

God’s Word is the Christian’s guide for making godly, successful choices in life. The Bible says, “Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path” (Psalms 119:105). Before you make decisions, compare your desires to what the scriptures say, and ask yourself the following questions:

1. Would you be able to ask God to bless it?

Would your decision be something that you can take before God with a good conscience and ask Him to bless? Or is it something that you know the Lord would not be enthused about? “The blessing of the LORD makes one rich, And He adds no sorrow with it” (Proverbs 10:22).

2. Could you thank Him for it?

Would your decision be something that you can openly express gratefulness and thankfulness to God? Or would it be something which would seem inappropriate to thank Him for? “And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him” (Col. 3:17).

3. Would it be to God’s Glory?

Would your decision be something that can bring Glory and honor to the Lord? Ask yourself how the Lord would be lifted up or blessed by your plans. “...whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God” (1 Cor. 10:31).

4. Would it be of the world?

Would your decision be an indulgence upon worldly, carnal appetites or lusts? “Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him” (1 John 2:15).

5. Would it be a stumbling block to others?

How would your decision affect the lives of your brethren in Christ? Even if you don’t feel it’s wrong, could it offend or harm the sensitive faith of those who don’t share your convictions? “...beware lest somehow this liberty of yours become a stumbling block to those who are weak” (1 Cor. 8:9).

6. Would it be a weight or hindrance?

Would your decision be something that would drag down your Christian life or influence you toward disobedience? “...let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us” (Hebrews 12:1).

7. Would it please God or man?

Whom do you hope to please by your decision? Will it bring pleasure to God, or will it appease self or man? “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men” (Col. 3:23).

8. How would the Devil react?

Would your decision or actions be considered a victory or a defeat by the Devil’s forces? Would Hell celebrate your choice as a fulfillment of Satan’s desires, or would the enemy be angry and disturbed? “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world” (1 Peter 5:8-9).

9. What would the consequences be?

What kind of long-term ramifications would you have to face for your decision? Remember, God will forgive sin and poor judgment, but you may have to live with the results of your decision for the rest of your life. “Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap” (Gal. 6:7).

10. Would it edify you?

Would your decision or actions bring you closer to God or pull you farther away? Will it edify (build you up) in the Lord, or will it weaken your confidence of the Lord’s strength in your life? “All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify” (1 Cor. 10:23).

11. Would it serve the right master?

Will your decision require you to yield to the demands of someone or something other than Christ? Will it cause you to compromise your submission and obedience to Jesus? “No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon” (Matt. 6:24).

12. Would His indwelling presence agree with it?

Would your decision bring peace to your inner man, or would it create discomfort or distress? Is your choice directed by the promptings and leading of the Holy Spirit, or by the appetites of the flesh? “However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth...” (John 16:13). “I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh” (Gal. 5:16).

13. Would you want to be doing this when Jesus Returns?

Would you want to be doing this when Christ comes again? If Jesus would appear to inspect your decision or actions, would you be embarrassed or delighted? Would His presence make you comfortable or insecure? “Therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect” (Matt. 24:44).

14. Would it promote love?

Would your decision or actions express love and harmony, or would it reflect retribution, jealousy or injury to your neighbor? “Owe no one anything except to love one another... Love does no harm to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfillment of the law” (Rom. 13:8, 10).

15. Have you sought the Lord about it?

The Lord promises to give leadership and direction to our life. Consult Him in prayer. Remember, God will never speak something to our heart that contradicts his written Word. “In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths” (Prov. 3:6). “There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the Lord’s counsel; that will stand” (Prov. 19:21).

16. Have you sought Godly counsel or advice?

Ask the advice of those who live Godly lives and have a track record of experience and wise decision making. Avoid the counsel of those whose Christian life is questionable or who have experience of failure in making sound decisions. “Where there is no counsel, the people fall; But in the multitude of counselors there is safety” (Prov. 11:14). “Blessed is the man Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly...” (Psa. 1:1).

i then realised theres so much encouragement, guidance, one can find through His word. It is amazing. i have not been praying and commiting these few days and i know how i have not read His ever important word, i then drift again, im such a drifter!! I have to reevaluate my decision.because this decision may be biased; made by my flesh and not what God wants for me.

But i will commit to Him what i have come by so far, He may change my decision half-way but for now, im gearing towards that school. I am rather impatient cause i wanna go do it knowing it is for a direct reason, but i should just do it and when God stops my path, i should stop.

Proverbs 16:1 The plans of the heart belong to man,
but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord.
9 The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord establishes his steps.
2 All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes,
but the Lord weighs the spirit.
3 Commit your work to the Lord,
and your plans will be established.

merrymauldlin

2011-05-18T02:52:00.001+08:00

kill the sloth and open the floodgates of creativity.

i should start my new art site. Merry Mauldlin fits my sentiments in art well.

this calls for the word stupid.

2011-05-17T17:26:00.002+08:00

when your heart is occupied. no one else can go in. not even someone who wants to be a small part of it. cause that cold corner of your heart just wont satisfy, will it. It hasn't.

1 John 2:15

2011-05-11T12:42:00.001+08:00

"Do not love the world or anything in this world"

The goal of worldly people is to move forward rather than upward, to live horizontally rather than vertically. They seek after outward prosperity rather than holiness. They burst with selfish desires rather than heartfelt supplications. If they do not deny God, they ignore and forget Him, or else they use Him only for their selfish ends. Worldliness... Is human nature without God. - Joel Beeke

Worried shoes

2011-05-05T02:37:00.001+08:00

I took my lucky break and I broke it in two
Put on my worried shoes
My worried shoes
And my shoes took me so many miles and they never wore out
My worried shoes
My worried shoes
oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo
My worried shoes
I made a mistake and I never forgot
I tied knots in the laces of
My worried shoes
And with every step that I'd take I'd remember my mistake
As I marched further and further away
In my worried shoes
oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oo
My worried shoes
And my shoes took me down a crooked path
Away from all welcome mats
My worried shoes
And then one day I looked around and I found the sun shining down
And I took off my worried shoes
And the feet broke free
I didn't need to wear
Then I knew the difference between worrying and caring
'Cause I've got a lot of walking to do
And I don't want to wear
My worried shoes
:)
<3

Defend the truth with love.

2011-04-29T15:00:00.001+08:00

Lord, help us not respond in kind
To those who hate and turn from You;
Instead, help us to love and pray
That someday they’ll accept what’s true. —Sper

LORD, help me praise you in the storm, though my heart is torn.

Lost

2011-04-29T11:39:00.001+08:00

O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s a light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!

Refrain

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there;
Over us sin no more hath dominion—
For more than conquerors we are!

Refrain

His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!

Refrain

You talk too much

2011-04-28T03:48:00.001+08:00

The wise King Solomon wrote, “In the multitude of words sin is not lacking, but he who restrains his lips is wise” (Prov. 10:19).

Gracious God

2011-04-25T18:14:00.001+08:00

When I don't expect anything, I see the abundance I receive undeservingly.

Moving past sinful failures

2011-04-21T15:40:00.001+08:00

Taken from daily bread:

How should we handle moments of faith-failure, when we’ve damaged the kingdom of God in the eyes of our friends and family or dishonored God in our actions?
We can learn from King David after his humiliation in the Bathsheba scandal. Though the terrible consequences of that sin could not be avoided, he found his way back to a relationship with God that made it possible for him to continue to serve Him. We too can find our way back.
David’s pattern in 2 Samuel 12 serves us well: We need to declare our error candidly (v.13) and seek God’s forgiveness. Then we can ask God that others be spared the consequences of our actions (v.16). Finally, we need to recognize that sometimes the consequences simply cannot be avoided and must be endured. While we always mourn those consequences, we can’t allow them to so consume us that we cease to be servants of God (vv.20-23).
Satan not only delights in the moment of our failure but also in the spiritual inactivity that sometimes snares us in our remorse. When we’ve blown our witness, we are and should be humbled. But we should not multiply the damage by retreating into silence and obscurity as ambassadors of Christ. We can move past failure.

Action Suggestion
If after you’ve confessed your sin to God, you still suffer
with guilty feelings, memorize Proverbs 24:16 and
1 John 1:9 and ask God to help you believe His Word.

God forgives our sins completely
to restore us to His presence and service.

1 John 1:9
9 If we qconfess our sins, He is rfaithful and just to forgive us our sins and to scleanse us from all unrighteousness.

"All to Jesus, I surrender."-- including pass failures that may embarrass us or fill us with guilt.

Thank God for helping me to get out of this rut.

Come Thou Fount of every blessing

2011-04-21T15:26:00.001+08:00

Prone to wander Lord I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love,
Take my heart, Lord.
Take and seal it.
Seal it for Thy courts above.

Selflessness

2011-04-21T01:45:00.001+08:00

Remember the world is hard to understand, but it's absolutely fine if I dont understand many things. Cause some things aren't meant to be understood or known. Don't jump to
Conclusions or self scrutinizing for no reason, and create own false ideas. The world does not revolve around you. DONT THINK SO MUCH! just let things be, and sometimes, ignorance is truly bliss.

I don't wanna know.

Age is just a number

2011-04-20T16:56:00.001+08:00

Have been so encouraged by a younger one whom God has put through a lot of trials and pain. She told me how her problems were painful and even having to deal with it for a year of guilt and worry, but it was resolved in God's hand in His sovereign timing. She's so mature in that sense, and I enjoy her understanding and encouraging words :) thank God for her!!

You are so hard to understand

2011-04-19T22:06:00.001+08:00

I'm fine

2011-04-18T15:36:00.001+08:00

Thanks, but don't worry abt me. I'm fine. ;) today I talked to another friend, she told
Me abt her story of how she found her only friendship
In God. We both love each other so we are considered as friends but we both felt God was our only friend when we were most needing a friend. That's what I meant. I still am grateful
Of my earthly relationships with my loving SICs and BICs. But we know who's relationship is eternal.

And walking away is not forever. One day our paths will meet, everything in God's time ;)

2011-04-18T00:51:00.001+08:00

not counting on anyone, except God, to love me like someone who matters.

pain

2011-04-17T20:54:00.001+08:00

"The pain of rejection is real. It registers in the same place in the brain as physical pain," says Judith V. Jordan, Ph.D., assistant clinical professor of psychology at Harvard University and co-author of Women's Growth in Connection (The Guilford Press, 1991).

no wonder it hurts so much.

One-sided friendships.

2011-04-17T20:18:00.004+08:00

My great Comforter; the only relationship that will not disappoint or disappear is found... only in You...

Disappointments

2011-04-15T16:20:00.001+08:00

The sunny weather today does not reflect my emotions. Why is it so bittersweet?

Today's life lesson: dealing with disappointments.
Let's just say He whacked me with disappointments back to back today. I'm very sad, I don't usually say that, cause I deal with sadness with laughter but today's one of those days, I just can't vocalize a 'haha' without feeling fake. But my lovely friends reminds me, He makes all things beautiful in His time. Wow the songs I loved to sing when I was in primary school now slowly revealed in deeper meaning and I thank God fr working in me! It's awesome, I feel like I'm actually changing learning from these lessons.

Now for the lesson:
I recently learnt disappointments happen when you expect too much. That's the secular p.o.w.

I learnt from God today: When we are disappointed, it is because we do not except or like God's will, it's as simple as that. Our expectations were proven to be off the alignment of His will and we are disappointed. Our hearts are fragile and so is our ego. We simply think "this is not common sense at all" but God follows His omniscient sense. I really lack control of myself when I face disappointments, that's my weakness. But I have to see that it is God in control and not me. And things will work out in His time, and not now, even if it means more worrying time. I have to get over them with faith! Today will be a rough day for me, but He has helped me overcome so many things in the past. I trust in Him, and He will comfort me. While im in this emotional mess hopefully not for long.

confuzzled

2011-04-14T12:22:00.003+08:00

my dad keeps asking me, what about studying in Korea,
seems like he remembers that more than bothering about my
arts degree. im very hmm Confuzzled now. hahaha

but as a friend said, "Life is a Confuzzling mess that is not meant to be gone through alone" true that.

I need God's guidance more than ever, singing songs of giving my life to receive life in Him. really? Lord, prepare my heart for what you have to tell me. hmm... i feel a stirring in my heart.

Get more GETTY

2011-04-14T12:16:00.001+08:00

YAY ADDED NEW SONGS TO MY PLAYLIST ON THE RIGHT ^^

Update wishlist

2011-04-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

Wishlist: vintage lookin' handheld, toy, polaroid & canon f/1.4 50mm & lensbaby lenses n editing softwares, smaller wacom, iMac, an easel, red sofa bed, red korg keyboard, valo sb zebra, 8B yayaya... Wish only.

He's still working in me!

2011-04-10T00:20:00.006+08:00

God is really building me up
when I prayed sincerely to Him to guide me and build me up to love Him more,
He puts me in trials, despite being so difficult, He is always there
to provide the way out of the temptation I cant bare, and to be my strength
and perserverence.
I can see Him working in my life that in eliminating things (not necessary sinful in itself) but things that are sinful because they have been hindering me from seeing God so often, or just for the purpose of me to love him deeper and glorify Him.

Like in using my talents, ive been struggling, but he elminates the wants i previously sought after, but He just simply took that sinful desire away!!~ although i have lapses He is my goal and reminder to stay true to the course of life! How gracious is our God! and now another issue which i have been struggling for as long as i can remember just that i never thought of it as a sin that i should eliminate, but God is showing it to me in black and white now. its amazing, im struggling but at least i see now how He works through this pain and suffering im going through, I know though purging more fruit i will bear and through the fire, i shall come forth as gold. indeed I rejoice in these sufferings, i were to come out as a prized posession of God.
The lyrics of this song is so apt. I thank God for their music!

Be Still My Soul.

Still my soul be still, and do not fear though winds of change may rage tomorrow.
God is at your side, no longer dread the fires of unexpected sorrow.
Chorus:
God You are my God, and I will trust in You and not be shaken.
Lord of peace renew a steadfast spirit within me to rest in You alone.
Still my soul be still, do not be moved by lesser lights and fleeting shadows.
Hold onto His ways with shield of faith against temptations flaming arrows.
Still my soul be still, do not forsake the Truth you learned in the beginning.
Wait upon the Lord and hope will rise as stars appear when day is dimming.

okay so i found another song which lyrics are even ever more apt ;)

Jesus draw me ever nearer
As I labour through the storm.
You have called me to this passage,
and I'll follow, though I'm worn.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart's testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.

Jesus guide me through the tempest;
Keep my spirit staid and sure.
When the midnight meets the morning,
Let me love You even more.

Let the treasures of the trial
Form within me as I go -
And at the end of this long passage,
Let me leave them at Your throne.

i shouldnt have.

2011-04-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

hahaha, thank God, im outta the situation
he made it easier for me.

now, all flushed with fever
the coldness of the day and night
seem consistantly comforting yet disabling
for me to think straight with thoughts wavering
and countless times i had to back out on my initiation
but you went away, far from my reach, unable to hear you breathe
or to know if you are alive anymore, believing its all just a bad dream

Sinful thoughts are sinful deeds

2011-04-07T19:41:00.001+08:00

Today I killed someone by punching her to death.

Escapism

2011-04-03T22:42:00.001+08:00

Just woke up from an evening nap but I'm still tired. I don't wanna think about anything, thank God for escapism in sleep. Night.

....

2011-04-03T18:00:00.002+08:00

wahh.. struggling.... haha im gonna just sleep through it..
haha. convicted, empowered, will do it!!
i guess i stil am pretty weak. 힘!!

True friends

2011-03-29T11:05:00.002+08:00

Appreciate God and His blessings of giving me true friends or people who would just spend time with me, who will smile when I am in their company cause they appreciate it. Angst much? Yea but I have such friends whom I've neglected so much. How many times must it take for me to remember to take care of my friendships? Love is never wasted I've always felt, but sometimes you feel as though you might have used that love for the grateful friends who will appreciate and grow from it more right? honestly this year has been a lot of learning and growing, it's going slower than I expected in a sense that I have abundance of life lessons in this period of 2011. Really a wide variety of experiences and it kills me emotionally sometimes but builds me up spiritually and physically haha.

The last time

2011-03-29T10:58:00.001+08:00

I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!

2011-03-23T14:51:00.001+08:00

Turning tables
Next time I'll be braver
I'll overcome your hold on me,
I won't let you close enough to hug me,
But I don't want you too far to leave me..
For now, just sit with me, but how am I to turn the tables?

MMM

2011-03-23T01:58:00.001+08:00

mixed media me

no shame

2011-03-22T22:39:00.001+08:00

shame.

그것은 신기, 일반 그냥 친구가 될 수없는 무엇입니까? 왜 가정과 험담을 만든다고?

That's it

2011-03-22T11:57:00.002+08:00

There is something stirring inside of me.. I wanna be a student again!! I do wanna study art but what major or course perplexes me. Pray pray pray want to further it's occupying much of my thought space in my head!!

Over thinking

2011-03-22T02:08:00.001+08:00

That's what our brains are best at. Doesnt matter the right's logic or the left's creativity... They just create things that do not exist and labels them as truth. How dangerous is that, it's synonymous with variations of depravity.. I'm worried for being worried even. I can't bear the thought of leaving. It is too painful. I thank God for you as a caring friend, someone to share thoughts and interests, and in times of trouble someone to rescue me... How did we come about I don't know honestly, i do. I'm embarrassed to think how I was such a jerk and sick koala. I'm embarrassed by so many horrible things I've unintentionally done to you all, now in retrospect, thanks to a true friend, with her honestly telling me of my perhaps bad deeds even though with pure and good intentions are continuing till' today. Eyes are opened to see, hears the lies of the overthought. If you don't appreciate it any more than I do, I guess it's just as it is. Plain and simple as the cold white truth. There's nothing going on really, there isn't a bothersome thought worthy of dwelling upon with such confusion or contempt. You ought to shake yourself awake with clearing of the warped mind.

bien there done that

2011-03-21T16:44:00.003+08:00

learnt yesterday, there is no boundaries when it comes to art, it can be everywhere, anything, and it can be something you create beyond your imagination in the limitation of this earth of expectations. and that made me realised God is really the greatest Artist of all. His art is just beautiful.

also i was really touched when we sang The communion hymn last sunday, it was so meaningful, i felt so blessed to be in the fellowship of the saints. God you have been great my answer to that hard question can finally be answered confidently..

sinking heart

2011-03-15T00:48:00.004+08:00

sinking hearts in sinking sand,
his hand upon her delicate shoulder
her waist hooked in with a tingling embrace
even though that's all we see through that one moment
but it's my sinking heart in the sinking sand

Ignorance

2011-03-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

Ignorance is not bliss.
Not knowing in the first place is.
-my heart

On and Out

2011-03-13T23:13:00.004+08:00

I try to forget but is been so long that
I forgot how to forget
It stays inside, it goes on and on and on
I didn't know i had it here for so long
but it all goes sour the longer it remains contempt
wash them away, with pain and paint
why does it, still remain?
it goes on and on and on...

(im gonna continue writing lyrics and poems, im really inspired by artistic music)<3

Flee

2011-03-10T10:27:00.002+08:00

Flee... Fly... Mosquito...
harder than it seems.

Amazing Love! <3

2011-03-07T13:35:00.001+08:00

SO AMAZED AT GOD'S POWER THROUGH LOVE! Your love is amazing steady and unchanging!!!! ^A^

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God used me today, just this morning! I'm very happy. he gave me opportunity to encourage my fellow sisters in Christ and in turn my fellow sisters in Christ has encouraged me too. God is so real when we experience His wonderful acts of love through us! I can feel it's unnatural for me to be loving in my human nature way, but God empowers me and I can feel that I'm able to love n say or think such things only through His enabling! And I thank God for Godly examples/friends who reminds me so very often to go to God in every situation! such love! Thanks auntie! You're one of them. Were in it together! ^^*
God is so awesome!!

Trials and temptations!!

2011-03-07T01:43:00.001+08:00

Right after prayer to be more Christ-like and a faithful christian, comes a floodgate of trials and temptations

. Wow I never felt such struggle to not sin except when I know I have to fight it. I do thank God for that for my dependence is only on Him, these negative and horrible thoughts are only an evidence how sinful I really am. Oh Lord help me, empower me to overcome them!! What wretched feelings!!!
Let God's perfect will be revealed to me!!! Not let things get out of hand, really it's all in my head! *Sigh*

jealousy

2011-03-06T22:01:00.003+08:00

she's blessed by so much is that why i am jealous?
but this negative feelings inside of me is where it shouldnt be...
instead i should be joyous!
And just live as who He wills me to be.

Wonderful day :D

2011-03-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

Wrote a lot of thanksgiving here. I guess God wants me to praise Him to him as a personal prayer, cause my whole chunk of words disappeared from my draft.. Now my mind isnt clear haha. Oh Well.
Short story: God is great! He answers prayers! Today was filled with blessings! Encouraged and thankful for so much! The sun was so warm and nice! Goodnight ^^*

2011-03-04T18:56:00.001+08:00

It's fair right? You have the b-rains I have the he-art. We're so different, can we ever exist in harmony?

2011-03-04T01:14:00.003+08:00

for the sake of your safety and health as well as mine, i will do it. D:
*sorry*

Fear and trembling

2011-03-03T23:26:00.001+08:00

Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.
Philippians 2:12-13

My attack on my sin in reliance upon the Holy Spirit rooted in the gospel is God's act, not mine.

people are not what they seem

2011-03-02T23:47:00.003+08:00

really today it's so true to me that people are not what they seem to be.
even a person i thought i knew for my whole lifetime, turned out to be so different from who i knew. Have i forgotten how drastically one can change in the years?
Within is a totally different person. Thats why we need to really talk and open up ourselves to each other to know one another truly, but not once, but for a lifetime of memories, these relationships reveals someone different from what you know about that person.
(i do thank God that she turns out to have more hope than i imagine behind that bitter life.)

Even i myself change and react to the moment so spontaneously. I simply cant trust in my judgement of one's character and personality in one occasion. (sometimes shallowly; on looks)

upsetting truth

2011-02-24T02:10:00.003+08:00

The truth is: it only upsets you if it means something to you... /over/thinking/

msn convo. good thoughts

2011-02-21T23:49:00.004+08:00

WHAT AM I DOIN WITH MY SINGLENESS?

ive recently been pondering on another question similar

WHAT AM I DOIN WITH MY YOUTH?

and the verse

Remember thy Creator in thy Youth!

yeala..

its sad luh but

yeah ... its a turn ard time now for me..

God is obviously showing me through message friends etc. that its NOW. not later

to want to Glorify Him

else im old and its more difficult

i mean to do thing physically

20s are the time man

not so sad being 21 soon

haha

i look @ it that way.

and all the possiblilities now that were 21

Remember Your Creator in Your Youth

1Remember also your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come and the years draw near of which you will say, “I have no pleasure in them”; 2before the sun and the light and the moon and the stars are darkened and the clouds return after the rain, 3in the day when the keepers of the house tremble, and the strong men are bent, and the grinders cease because they are few, and those who look through the windows are dimmed, 4and the doors on the street are shut—when the sound of the grinding is low, and one rises up at the sound of a bird, and all the daughters of song are brought low— 5they are afraid also of what is high, and terrors are in the way; the almond tree blossoms, the grasshopper drags itself along,^a and desire fails, because man is going to his eternal home, and the mourners go about the streets— 6before the silver cord is snapped, or the golden bowl is broken, or the pitcher is shattered at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern, 7and the dust returns to the earth as it was, and the spirit returns to God who gave it. 8Vanity of vanities, says the Preacher; all is vanity.

Fear God and Keep His Commandments

9Besides being wise, the Preacher also taught the people knowledge, weighing and studying and arranging many proverbs with great care. 10The Preacher sought to find words of delight, and uprightly he wrote words of truth.

11The words of the wise are like goads, and like nails firmly fixed are the collected sayings; they are given by one Shepherd. 12My son, beware of anything beyond these. Of making many books there is no end, and much study is a weariness of the flesh.

13The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.^b 14For God will bring every deed into judgment, with^c every secret thing, whether good or evil.

Unstable as water.

2011-02-21T19:11:00.002+08:00

I. Double Mindedness.
A. One who tries to live in two worlds.
1. Spiritually and mentally schizophrenic. Produces insanity in it’s
heightened form.
2. Attempts to develop faith in God and the world system.
Matt. 6:24 No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate
the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and
despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.
a. Not to say that we are not to be wise in the ways of the
world, or that God won’t use the world, but you can’t
serve the world system and God simultaneously.
3. Makes us lukewarm or tepid.
Rev. 3:16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold
nor hot, I will spew thee out of my mouth.
B. Wavers. vs. 6
Defined; To move unsteadily back and forth. To exhibit irresolution or
indecision; vacillate. To become unsteady or unsure; falter.
1. Likened unto a wave driven by the wind and tossed aimlessly.
a. Opens them to deception.
Eph. 4:14 That we henceforth be no more children, tossed
to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by
the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie
in wait to deceive;
[1.] Compared to children.
C. Unstable in all his ways. vs. 8
1. Defined; Tending strongly to change. Not constant; fluctuating.
Fickle. Lacking control of one's emotions; characterized by
unpredictable behavior. Not firmly placed; unsteady.
D. Will not receive anything from God. vs.7
1. It takes a made up mind. Choose one or the other.
Josh. 24:15 ...choose you this day whom ye will serve;...
a. This day.

Conclusion:
• Are you stable in all your ways? If not, check to see if your double minded in the
areas that your unstable.
• Are you fully trusting in the power of God, or is your faith placed in the power of
the world system, yourself, or someone else?
• Choose this day whom you’ll serve. Choose not to be lukewarm.
• Ask for the wisdom of God

-http://www.davidmay.com/outlines/UnstableAsWater.pdf-

(s)Lack...

2011-02-21T02:45:00.001+08:00

Efficiency needs to be a habit and natural brain process. Now, at this age, you begin to see the lacking in the natural process, and I wonder what went wrong in my up bringing that made me so lacking like this. It takes another level to change them bad habits now. After that being said, it's better late than never, right?

Love

2011-02-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

For some reason today.. i feel Love every strongly like a radiating warmth. I love this feeling.. I thank God for Love, I thank God we are able to show love...

Dreams

2011-02-16T14:47:00.001+08:00

Wow past 3 days when I am feeling a bit better, my dreams are really like adventures in my sleep! I don't remember what were the previous ones but last night it was some candy land factory cum water theme obstacle park cum
Arcade lol.. It was mad, a lot of the YFers were there lol! Facing my fears etc mad but fun!! But then I feel as if I used a lot of energy after I wake up :/ tahr whatever bahumbug!

100% Alice in wonderland

2011-02-15T22:25:00.005+08:00

im not going to change what i am to be someone you'll like more.
im not going to compromise my own ideas and morals just so i am on par with your world knowledge.
im not gonna let physical limitations cease what my mind is capable of.
im not gonna fall into this slump any deeper, just because im used to it.
im gonna let God empower me to do things that are great and meaningful.
im gonna be New.
Say Hi to the new Alice, the Heroine.

필숙아..힘내라!!!~ㅋㅋ

Tu me manques

2011-02-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

Hopelessly devoted to you...
Take time to realize...
It's you and me...

Paris was too romantic for my good. Hahaha.. A stark difference to other European countries I've visited. Makes me miss you.

2011-01-29T17:35:00.002+08:00

My trip to Europe is going to end in just two days, although I'm sad, I'm looking forward to be back..

2011-01-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

John Owen: The vigor and power and comfort of our spiritual life depends on our mortification of deeds of the flesh.

So true how I faileth

2011-01-18T10:22:00.001+08:00

But the thing is she doesn't keep it in until the next day, what she says may be hurtful and grudgingly given, but she still gives. So I shouldn't be too harsh on her. It's a love-hate relationship. I want to fully hate but I can't because I do love.

Back to His perspective.

2011-01-17T13:41:00.000+08:00

Singing glory, honour, wisdom, power
To the Lamb upon the throne.
Hallelujah, I will lift Him high.
Singing glory, honour, wisdom, power
To the Lamb upon the throne.
Hallelujah I will sing with every breath that I am given
I will sing salvation's song;
And I'll join the chorus of creation
Giving praise to Christ alone.

my greatest comfort is knowing Him.

What I don't ever wanna be

2011-01-17T13:17:00.002+08:00

I don't want to be selfish, arrogant, quick-tempered, have a hardened heart that doesn't even try to understand others, think of myself so highly that I make others depressed about themselves, lacking in any real love, thinking that material love is what makes one joyful, thinking the whole world is against only myself, and that means the whole world revolves around me, not caring about what my family and love-ones think about myself, but care deeply what others view me in the facade that I don't care about what they think about my outward appearance and character. Anyone against me is evil, I get my way, or else I get fiesty and hold a grudge and then go home and feel depressed about myself and expect people to help me, and when they do, throw a tantrum and say no one understands me. Living a life of lies & deceit to others and myself.

You make me very scared to be like 'her'. I feel immense jealously when others have one to understand and nurture and guide and give hugs that don't feel like it's filled with pretense and irony. Can't one just have a pure heart, filled with love? I'm so afraid of a life without God, without Him, I might just become 'you'.. Lord, my life desire to not become like 'her'. Take away this fear that is not necessary in my life. I pray for that person, to give her difficult life over to You. Stop the terrible nonsense now. Please.

Marriage is for life

2011-01-14T04:43:00.000+08:00

They say if the girl loves him more than he loves her, she's in it for trouble... Other says it's utter rubbish.. You just gotta love him more than ever! But, seriously, It's tiring loving someone who loves himself more than he loves you. I don't wanna waste such life on people like that. Cause it actually drains the life outta ya... Then, that makes me the selfish one, right? But it must work both ways for love to last in this relationship right? Why is it always "me, me, me.." at first I was happy to be with you doing anything anytime... But now it's just tiring. I don't wanna feel hatred towards you, you, you. I love you too much to do that. Can i be sure I will love you till the end of my life? If no, I shouldn't be bothering. This is the first time it came to me.. Are we humans capable of loving at all? Wretched selfish; ungrateful beings... I'm tired today, I don't believe it in today... What is love ?? Other than God, I have absolutely no idea, no idea, no idea....

What is love? If it's not selfless, I don't know what it is.

fearful but excited

2011-01-12T17:13:00.006+08:00

Im going to Europe. ( i cant believe it myself!)

Its my dream, but i feel a bit anxious as it is a spontaneous trip and only females in this group.

Please pray for safety in the airplane and trains, and that no bad situations might come our way!!

I entrust this trip to Him.

effeuiller la marguerite

2011-01-11T17:13:00.000+08:00

il m'aime, il ne m'aime pas. Je l'aime?

do not be anxious about tomorrow

2011-01-11T17:12:00.002+08:00

Do Not Be Anxious

²⁴"No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? [1] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

it was a good rest

2011-01-04T10:35:00.006+08:00

i probably gotta push myself a whole lot harder this 2011, after the good rest, finally a period of time i can firmly say it was a good rest. now i have no excuse to not push myself to do what i ought to and more.

A new regime and new embarkation to new experiences!! How exciting is that?!

Firstly i gotta make plans though, and do lotsa research. Then make sure im not having a bias choice-making mindset. That im not doing it for myself or someone else but for God.

from dailybread:

We were created to be in relationship with God; and when we take that relationship to an intimate level, it bonds us not only to His presence but also to His strength. Prayers that express our hurts and emotions are most assuredly welcomed by God because they demonstrate our trust in Him. We will often find perspective, and nearly always come away comforted, knowing we’ve entrusted the things that are troubling us—whether criticism or deep desires—to the One who is best able to sort through them.

3 Years...

2011-01-04T10:33:00.001+08:00

Week #
1 Gen 1-8
2 Gen 9-16
3 Gen 17-24
4 Gen 25-32
5 Gen 33-40
6 Gen 41-48
7 Gen 49-Ex. 6
8 Ex 7-14
9 Ex 15-22
10 Ex 23-30
11 Ex 31-38
12 Ex 39-Lev. 6
13 Lev 7-14
14 Lev 15-22
15 Lev 23-Num. 3
16 Num 4-11
17 Num 12-19
18 Num 20-27
19 Num 28-35
20 Num 36-Deut. 7
21 Deut 8-15
22 Deut 16-23
23 Deut 24-31
24 Deut 32-Josh. 5
25 Josh 6-13
26 Josh 14-21
27 Josh 22-Judg 5
28 Judg 6-13
29 Judg 14-21
30 Ruth-1 Sam 4
31 I Sam 5-12
32 1 Sam 13-20
33 1 Sam 21-28
34 I Sam 29-2 Sam 5
35 2 Sam 6-13
36 2 Sam 14-21
37 2 Sam 22-1 Ki 5
38 1 Ki 6-13
39 1 Ki 14-21
40 1 Ki 22-2 Ki 7
41 2 Ki 8-15
42 2 Ki 16-23
43 2 Ki 24-1 Chr 6
44 1 Chr 7-14
45 1 Chr 15-22
46 1 Chr 23-2 Chr 1
47 2 Chr 2-9
48 2 Chr 10-17
49 2 Chr 18-25
50 2 Chr 26-33
51 2 Chr 34-Ezra. 5
52 Ezra 6-Neh. 3

Week #
1 Neh 4-11
2 Neh 12-Esther 6
3 Est 7-Job 4
4 Job 5-12
5 Job 13-20
6 Job 21-28
7 Job 29-36
8 Job 37-Ps 2
9 Ps 3-10
10 Ps 11-18
11 Ps 19-26
12 Ps 27-34
13 Ps 35-42
14 Ps 43-50
15 Ps 51-58
16 Ps 59-66
17 Ps 67-74
18 Ps 75-82
19 Ps 83-90
20 Ps 91-98
21 Ps 99-106
22 Ps 107-114
23 Ps 115-122
24 Ps 123-130
25 Ps 131-138
26 Ps 139-146
27 Ps 147-Prov 4
28 Prov 5-12
29 Prov 13-20
30 Prov 21-28
31 Prov 29-Eccl. 5
32 Eccl 6-Song of S. 1
33 Song 2-Isa 1
34 Isa 2-9
35 Isa 10-17
36 Isa 18-25
37 Isa 26-33
38 Isa 34-41
39 Isa 42-49
40 Isa 50-57
41 Isa 58-65
42 Isa 66-Jer. 7
43 Jer 8-15
44 Jer 16-23
45 Jer 24-31
46 Jer 32-38
47 Jer 39-45
48 Jer 46-52
49 Lam-Ezek 2
50 Ezek 3-9
51 Ezek 10-16
52 Ezek 17-23

Week #
1 Ezek 24-30
2 Ezek 31-37
3 Ezek 38-44
4 Ezek 45-Dan 3
5 Dan 4-10
6 Dan 11-Hosea5
7 Hosea 6-12
8 Hosea 13-Amos 2
9 Amos 3-9
10 Obed-Micah 2
11 Micah 3-Nahum 2
12 Nahum 3-Zeph 3
13 Hagg 1-Zech 5
14 Zech 6-12
15 Zech 13-Malachi 4
16 Matt 1-8
17 Matt 9-15
18 Matt 16-22
19 Matt 23-Mark 1
20 Mark 2-8
21 Mark 9-15
22 Mark 16-Luke 6
23 Luke 7-13
24 Luke 14-20
25 Luke 21-John 3
26 John 4-10
27 John 11-17
28 John 18-Acts 3
29 Acts 4-10
30 Acts 11-17
31 Acts 18-24
32 Acts 25-Rom 3
33 Rom 4-10
34 Rom 11-1 Cor 1
35 I Cor 2-8
36 1 Cor 9-15
37 1 Cor 16-2 Cor 6
38 2 Cor 7-13
39 Gal 1-Eph 1
40 Eph 2-Phil 2
41 Phil 3-1 Thes 1
42 I Thes 2-2 Thes 3
43 1 Tim 1-2 Tim 1
44 2 Tim 2-Phil
45 Heb 1-7
46 Heb 8-James 1
47 James 2-1 Pet 3
48 1 Pet 4-1 John 2
49 I John 3-Rev 1
50 Rev 2-8
51 Rev 8-15
52 Rev 16-22

열심히

2011-01-04T01:28:00.003+08:00

내수물하나생일그날전살빼야돼여...
열심히하고과식안돼절데안돼!! =^>ㅅ<^= 끝까지해라!!~

1st Jan 2011

2011-01-01T22:51:00.004+08:00

interesting isit it?
it's a new year, it hardly feels so, it hasn't hit me yet, cause i had no need to write the date down on my homework, since ive graduated...
but from 31st Jan at watchnight service, God hits me hard with the challenge that i so many times took up in prayer to commit to give my all, my life to Him.
Despite the doubts, and uncertainties at times, i feel the truth overwhelming me that night, that i cant hide my tears of remorse, thankfulness, and so much more emotions i cannot comprehend. God sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ to live a man but yet without blemish a sacrifice for us, our sin. It was overwhelming...

Then my heart hurt so bad, for the things ive done, and the things ive not done.
Things that i should not have even thought of doing or evil thoughts ive entertained for my own pleasure, even though i didnt do it in the end. And most of all, i remember the day i cried for hours, for not stopping my good friend from becoming badly influenced by the naughty ones in school, and for not telling her the gospel sooner. Then i think of the dear friend ive had in church for a while and i just let her go like that, just cause i was afraid, and fearful of what our friendship will become, i just let someone else handle it. Yet look at us now. I am full of regret, really, i hope to do something about it this year.God- willing, we can get her back, or most importantly to God. Also friends whom i never prayed enough for or cared enough to meet up often, ( i can blame school busyness and stress but) now they have gone into the world, loving themselves more than God, the world greets them with temptations they are so chummy with, that i could no longer speak to them with ease or mutual understanding about Christ. I have to bemore courageous to stand up and speak up what i live for.

for 2011, Pastor challenged us, to make a conscious effort do something for someone everyday, or at least once a week even. That is to promote 'Others-centered" thinking, and not "SELF"ish thinking for once. I think i should be more conscious about that.

And also, praying for the younger ones. I dont know but i really thank God so much that he gave my batch/generation of Yfers to have no such problems as what the older ones and younger ones have.. that is relational issues. We had no such problems, seriously. not once were we even upset at each other. I really pray that we would all show each other more love, peace and understanding...

And also God is challenging me greatly, to seek a career, a future not according to my interest, wants, dreams, hopes, talents plainly. Cause if i did i would have already lived for myself. But he challenged me to sacrifice things, which i am still struggling to give up. Cause i think ill do just fine and excel even in that area of job, but ever wondered, "Maybe God doesnt want me to do that. Will God be glorified in this area?"
We people always think of the future like a train, we just go with the flow of the tracks blindly. Maybe we are on the wrong track in the first place.

Another issue is always thinking about the future plans, and i really think, i should just let God do it, and not keep taking things into my own hands and doing things which i already regret terribly... God works in His own time, and i trust that he has prepared for me whats best. And i should stop entertaining thoughts and deeds i create on my own to make myself feel better. But God always put a stop to it when i ask Him to help me with this problem. He *whams* puts me in an always painful, and straight forward in-my-face sorta situation, but God knows that's the only way i wont try to squeeze last drop of a reason to go back...
So it futile for me to think of such things, hurhur... difficult for all of us, i know, but living for Jesus, is easier done with less distractions, right? hehhee.. even though its always a consistent dream.

and lastly, thank God for giving me that sense of inadequacy in knowledge of his word, that i lack the wisdom to encourage others or help others biblically. And also the proneness to go back to sin, because I have not hid His word in my heart, if i have not been reading it in the first place, right? ^^

THERE IS A HOPE

2010-12-23T23:29:00.001+08:00

THERE IS A HOPE
by Stuart Townend and Mark Edwards
Copyright (c) 2007 Thankyou Music.

There is a hope that burns within my heart,
That gives me strength for ev'ry passing day;
a glimpse of glory now revealed in meager part,
Yet drives all doubt away:
I stand in Christ, with sins forgiv'n;
and Christ in me, the hope of heav'n!
My highest calling and my deepest joy,
to make His will my home.

There is a hope that lifts my weary head,
A consolation strong against despair,
That when the world has plunged me in its deepest pit,
I find the Savior there!
Through present sufferings, future's fear,
He whispers, "Courage!" in my ear.
For I am safe in everlasting arms,
And they will lead me home.

There is a hope that stands the test of time,
That lifts my eyes beyond the beckoning grave,
To see the matchless beauty of a day divine
When I behold His face!
When sufferings cease and sorrows die,
and every longing satisfied,
then joy unspeakable will flood my soul,
For I am truly home.

this song speaks to my soul,

i am filled with exceeding joy and

i know God is the utmost important person in my life

side note

2010-12-23T22:53:00.001+08:00

dayyyum.. he said im soo cool that i can be (is) like one of the guys.

thats good but sad at the same time...

hahah, alrights i'll take it as a compliment today...

Happy Birthday, Jesus

2010-12-23T22:50:00.003+08:00

not thinking about Christ enough this CHRISTmas, its a challenge to sieve through the fun, friends and family and focus on Him...

Happy Birthday, Jesus

"..expect great things from God and attempt great things for God..."

God's telling me..

2010-12-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

disappointments one after another...

when you think you know somebody...

and you look up to that person...

then you find, imperfections...

(we are all humans aren't we?)

but it is kinna sad to know we are so much alike

yet we are so different...

cycle

2010-12-22T02:10:00.001+08:00

it is a cycle right.. many events, many relationships built, many memories formed...

then the new year appears, and it seem distant to reality...praying for consistency...

2010-12-18T23:28:00.001+08:00

Tmr d day

Too smart for me

2010-12-18T01:26:00.000+08:00

If only your thoughts were in the same wavelength as my thoughts...

The stars tell me it's impossible, I dream to differ. But only in my dreams.

Weakness

2010-12-18T01:12:00.000+08:00

My weakness is missing someone. I can not hold back my tears at the feeling of distance and yearning. I miss you... ;( *crys*

2010-12-11T17:30:00.001+08:00

blog about camp another day.. gonna catch some Zees.